Insecure Writer’s Support Group: My favorite group of authors.
JH Moncrieff
Madeline Mora-Summonte
Jen Chandler
Megan Morgan
Heather Gardner
Since the death of my dear husband exactly three months ago, I have been standing in an unrelenting storm. To bank managers, government officials, lawyers, I create a facsimile of strength and tolerance for change. Day by day, meeting after meeting, legal documents and sympathy cards, have driven home the message that I will have to change or the storm will wear me down to become a fragile and incompetent old woman.
In some respects, the storm is still raging. My center is gone. Making decisions has been terrifying. Sometimes, I can’t decide on anything. I wonder, how can I write again. Do I want to write?
Then miracles, those ‘oh my god’ events, gave me hope. Last month I asked for help in getting one hundred reviews for Forbidden. Many of you requested a copy of Forbidden and then posted incredible reviews. Thank you so very much. You made my heart sing.
Recently, Cheryl Masciarelli (CMash Reads), because she loved Forbidden so much, asked if I would agree to being the Author of the Month on her blog. Forbidden will be front and center, avec interviews and guest posts each June 1st, 8th, 15th, 22nd, and June 29th.
And, she encouraged me to feature Forbidden on the Partners in Crime blog starting June 19th to July 7th. Watch this blog for dates and location of interviews, guest posts, giveaways. Doing the happy chicken dance.
I think the main challenge for me is to accept I am going to be different in the months ahead. It is frightening. Most days, I feel like I’m still standing in the storm. And yet, there’s a hint of exhilaration. There may be damage and turmoil, but also a possibility of resurgence of energy and freshness.
Blessings, everyone.
Romance Under Fire 
Wow, you’ve been through a lot. Thank you for sharing your struggle. Gives me perspective on my own. I hope you do find what you need to write, when the time is right, and I hope the writing provides you comfort.
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Thank you for your compassion, Raimeygallant. I’m grateful that this is the summer season. Being able to be outside in the sun and enjoy summer activities is so healing.
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Oh my dear Feather, I understand exactly where you are and feel with you. One of my best girlfriends forever, who was like a sister to me, died May 15th. I accompanied her through the last nine months of her life. Put everything on the back burner and was there for her day and night. Now, she’s departed and I’m left behind, dealing with the loss and with her parents. She was an only child and only forty-three years old. So I so identify with being in the storm and even though it stormy, I feel bits of exhilaration.
Keep walking forward. Your life has changed. I know mine has. It will never be the same. I’ve shed a shell of falsity by walking with my dear friend. A shell that I didn’t know I had and I have become a little bit closer to being a really caring and true person. The last nine months with her brought this change in me. A change to be sincere and openhearted.
All the best.
Shalom aleichem,
Patricia
Everything Must Change
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Thank you, Pat. It is friends like you online in the flesh who have been so supportive. Not being alone is so valued. The rest is up to me to adjust, adapt and grow.
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My prayers with you. You have so much to deal with. That was nice of her to make your book the featured one. If you need to talk to someone who has been through that storm, a good blogger buddy of mine went through that less than two years ago.
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Thank you, Alex. Aside from missing my mate, the experience of being a woman alone has been tough. I lock everything – every door and gate. A feeling of safety is going to tough to resurrect. However, thanks to good neighbors and people like you, my confidence will prevail.
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Tears overwhelm me. You are awesome. You are strong and I know good things are coming your way. Hugs n Prayers.
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Thank you, Juneta. Yes, my metal is being tested. Not the first time, and probably not the last. Blessings
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Condolences on your loss and proud for holding it all together. Thank you for showing your amazing courage and strength in sharing your heart with us through it all. Congrats on Forbidden’s success, too. Well-deserved.
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